Confessions of a Self-Promoting Girl: How to Make Jesus More Famous

It’s confession time. Surprisingly, I’ve decided to write an open letter to my readers. Why? Because more than anything, I want to be truly understood by you. It matters to me; it’s my nature to want to please. While God’s refining the need for approval in me, I’m a work in progress. Aren’t we all? Meanwhile, here I am asking you a very important question.

Would you be my secret keeper?

Would you sit with me for a spell and hear my heart? I mean really hear my heart. Would you wait on the other side of the screen and let me let it all out? If you will, read on sweet friend.

Confessions of a Self-Promoting Girl

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Notably, I didn’t grow up going to confession. But, today I’m feeling the need to cleanse my soul. Honestly, I feel a little cheap and kind of dirty too. I felt like this before, but for so many other (unholy) reasons. What exactly is this overwhelming feeling?  I think it has a name. Most certainly, this burden, the one I’ve carried all week, is shame.

Interestingly, it’s the end of the day; the end of Giving Tuesday 2018. Whew! It’s been a good day. Yet, I find myself writing to purge. It’s been a rough week of putting myself out there time and again. It’s the end of the year. I should be excited to steward this amazing gift God’s so sweetly entrusted to me. Real Victory Radio is a dream. One I didn’t even know I wanted. I know, I should be thrilled at the prospect of another year behind the mic. But, I’m kind of not. Don’t get me wrong; I love doing all this. But, it’s real hard to ask people to buy into your dream. Harder still to fundraise for your own ministry. Believe it or not, it’s not easy to keep tooting your own horn.

To be honest, I’m exhausted. Really, I’m not complaining; I’m  just confessing what you may have already guessed. In fact, I feel like it’s a glaring truth. Most days, I just do the next thing on my long to-do list. As a writer who longs to be traditionally published, this platform building…horn-tooting…shouting out is required. Yes, it is to get noticed. Usually, I’m embarrassed. Most often, I’m feeling awkwardly out of place.

Confession:  This is an introvert’s worst nightmare!

Honestly, I’m afraid you won’t like me anymore. That you’ll unfriend me, unlike my ministry page, or be bothered by my every word. I’m afraid if you know the truth, if you know the real me, it won’t be enough. You might not even care or worse, you might leave without saying a word. I know I’m not alone in this because each and every one of my writer friends could have written this blog post tonight and probably with much more grace. But, it’s a chance I have to take because in the end, I’m not in it for me.

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Confession: I’m tired of tooting my own horn

There it is, my biggest confession. What a beautiful gift it is to tell on yourself. What a blessing to spill the beans and tell the truth. I’m hoping by the end of this blog I’ll feel refreshed and cleaned up a little too. Mostly, I hope to be better understood by you, sweet friend. More than anything, I want you to know why I’m doing all this in the first place. It looks a lot like self-promotion, doesn’t it? But, there’s more to the story. There’s something much bigger going on behind the scenes. I wanted to let you in…to let you have a glimpse of the real story.

Deep down, we all want to be seen, heard, and known. It’s innate. God placed those desires within to draw us closer to Him. What we’re really looking for is intimacy. What we want is to be understood by those around us.

Confession: I want you to know me. But, what I want even more is for you to know what Jesus has done in my life and will do in yours

Your heart matters to me. Your life matters to me. I want you to know you’re not alone. I want you to know I’ve been there. Maybe not the exact places you’ve been, but I’ve faced some hard things where God showed up and made a way. I want you to know God will make a way for you too. Whatever you’re facing, you are victorious because of the Cross. Nothing is too big or too bad for God to handle, not even what you’ve done or what’s been done to you. With God on our side, and He is on your side, we can rise up and fight our way through bigger battles than we can even believe possible.

With God on our side, our battlefields become valleys of blessing.

~Amy Elaine Martinez, Becoming a Victory Girl

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Truthfully, I’ve been in a battle with myself lately. How do I find the boundary line of self-promotion and making Jesus famous? Because that’s what this girl is all about and I need a boundary line so as not to cross it.

The story God’s written on my heart to share with you feels weighty and fragile. Like every little girl, I want so badly to make my Papa proud. Yes, I want that book deal; every writer does.

But, more importantly, I want to say the right words, write the powerful lessons, and draw your heart toward Jesus in such a way you never want anything less, only more of Him. Because only Jesus satisfies. Intimacy is what we're longing for and being known and seen and heard can only be found in a deeper relationship with God. Click To Tweet

God’s Confession

God loves you.

He wanted a relationship with us so badly, He sent His only Son to die that we might live. Likewise, God set us free to stay free. So, today, I’m shaking my fist at the shame that threatens to take me down. I’m gonna get my praise on and start thanking God for giving me an assignment to accomplish. When shame calls, the best weapon we have is thanksgiving. So join me in putting on your boxing gloves and start throwing your punches of praise right back at regret.

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That’s right, no more shame or regret. God gave me a voice. And for a time, I have a radio show to reach people who need to know they are free and can live a victorious life! Yes, I will use my voice to shout from the mountaintops of my Savior’s love and power to set us free. Through Jesus, we’ve been loosed from the chains of shame in our past. Finally, set free from the embarrassment of self-promotion. And, fully free from the lie of the enemy. Shame does not win the day. That’s just not true!

This is my confession…

Let me be clear, the Anointed One has set us free—not partially, but completely and wonderfully free! We must always cherish this truth and stubbornly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 TPT

If you’re a writer, I hope I’ve spoken well for you today. I know this struggle is real. My prayer is for all of us to keep shining a light on Jesus and making Him more famous. I hope you’ve found a little “how to” in the lines of this page. And, if you’re a reader, thank you for listening.

Thank you for hearing my confessions.

Most of all, thank you for being my secret-keeper. I need you to know the girl behind the self-promotion. She adores you. She loves Jesus. Her heart’s desire is to make Jesus famous.

Unbelievably, Jesus radically changed me from the inside out. I can’t help but tell someone, really anyone who will listen, about the wonder-working power of God. It is the transforming power of the Holy Spirit taking us broken girls and making us whole again.

Really, isn’t God so good?

Recently, I wrote about the hard work of becoming. It’s a matter of the heart and God is serious about it. Thankfully, He loves us enough to see us through. When our hearts finally want His fame more than our own, we’re just scratching the surface of the depths of revelation He has for us. God looks at the heart. I hope you’ve seen part of mine today. Simply put, this statement pretty much sums up what God’s been up to in my life: Becoming is heart work.

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Final Confession:  It’s really all about making Jesus famous and not me at all.

Finally, making Jesus famous is the heart behind my ministry and calling. Unfortunately, there are many voices vying for your attention and if I don’t tell you about what’s going on here, no one else will. Consequently, the announcements for blogs and radio shows must continue.

However, I’m taking the month of December to sit in my quiet, still, intimate space with God. Frankly, this shouting out has plumb worn me out. Seems like, there’s still so much to accomplish this year. Most likely, you’ll find me a littler quieter on social media. Rather than tooting my horn, may the lights always shine on Jesus.

My prayer: Jesus, take the limelight in my life. Be centerstage.

In conclusion, tonight I’m wishing you a very Merry Christmas season. Also, I’m thanking God for each and every one of you. You make me smile on the days when the words won’t come. Even more, you make me press in a little harder to hear God’s voice. Honestly, it’s all about you and Jesus!

Lovingly,

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In closing, do you need help in your battle to be still? Read this post:  Winning the Battle to Be Still

Need to DECLARE God’s Word over your destiny and calling? Listen to this:  Episode 18: How to Walk in the Freedom of Your Calling

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About Amy Elaine Martinez

Amy Elaine is an author, speaker, wife, and mom. She's also the radio show host of Real Victory Radio. Amy Elaine blogs at AmyElaine.com and lives in both Colorado and Oklahoma. Most days you'll find her at a local coffee shop writing or ministering across the table to a friend. Amy Elaine's heart desire is to see people walk in wholeness and live in victory. Amy Elaine Ministries, Inc. is a non-profit ministry helping heart-shattered lives become whole again through the listener supported radio program heard Saturdays 6 am and 4 pm on 94.7 FM The Word KRKS in the Denver area. The program is also available for live streaming on your phone or computer from anywhere. Amy Elaine loves to share the story of how Jesus made her a broken girl made whole through the transforming power of the Holy Spirit. She's available to speak at your next women's event. To connect with Amy Elaine, please contact her through her website.

6 thoughts on “Confessions of a Self-Promoting Girl: How to Make Jesus More Famous

  1. I absolutely love your heart and can identify with everything you’ve said here. It’s difficult to find the balance but as long as we are promoting Jesus and He is our message I think it’s God-given promotion. We are obligated to shout from the rooftops! Much love friend 🙂

  2. I struggle with this too, Amy Elaine. So I really appreciate your vulnerability and desire to do this for an audience of One! But even beyond the issue of feeling embarrassed about “tooting my own horn,” sometimes I fall for my own propaganda! Lol! I mean, I sometimes think I’m better than I really am. I always want to do my ministry for the sake of the Lord, but can easily get sucked into doing it to impress others. So it’s a one day at a time, one moment at a time, effort to surrender my gain so that Christ is glorified instead. Thanks for this thought-provoking and encouraging post, my friend!

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